Welcome to all the new members. Wow RayGirl, this is the most complete introduction, I'm really impressed. Of course I can't answer your main question about life but I can tell you something, the fact of being interested in something like rythm game, or music helps you to find yourself. I always have been passionated about japanese sound, manga and more recently rythm games and it helped me keeping my shinny personal guideline (in a tasteless adult world). Take care of you.